If the people who had those ribbons and everything just gave more money, did a little extra, imagion what good it would, and could do.

 

But instead they just buy the sticker, blare their music a tthe top of their trucks lungs and zoom around, often speeding up when the light turns red to beat the other people across. Risking their lives, and other peoples as well.

 

I find it utterly rediculous. And what are the politician's doing about it? Particularly our infenently wise President and vice-president? Just lining thier pockets and making even more money for their freinds and themselves.

 

And what do we do about it, (myself included) forget most of the time that the truth isn't shoved in our faces. After all it isn't human nature to enjoy suffuring, and thinking about other peoples. It's human nature to have a good time. And so many minds won't let people have fun when other can't. The rest of the time we grip and groan. Tie flags to our cars, by stickers and ribbon. And blame the politicians for what they aren't doing. We grumbling amongst ourselves saying what Bush should and shouldn't do. But the truth is we don't do anything to stop or start him. We just let everything happen.

 

Last fall I read a chapter that was dead dull, and milleniums long in a history book about how we can't just sit there and let everything happen. I decided that I didn't have any right to complaine if first, I didn't know anything (which I still don't, and probubly never will.) and second don't do anything to change what I don't like.

 

So here I'm doing just that. I can say that I voted for the democrat when therer was the election, and wanted Nater (or however you spell his name) to win. But was practical and knew that he wouldn't, he'd just take votes away from the democrate. And the democrate was better than Bush, at least in my opinion.

 

And while I'm writting this I'm feeling infinitly guilty. And wishing that I could put up a wed site, or a place to donate money to help change this drastic problem that's cuting so many lives short. But I don't know any such place. And my fingers are freezing cold from typing too fast, and I don't even know where to begin to look for that information. So on a very sad and guilty note I end. But do promise that if I do find such a place I will add that information.

 

Of course I only know of to people who've looked at my site. And if I'm not much mistake both are minors. They can't do all that much. So, hi there yoy two. Spread the word while standing in the lunch line to buy string cheese.

 

So today while at the book store my Mum wouldn't get me a book I thought I might like to read. (Mum has to buy it sence she has money that I don't have.) Anyway. After I watched a documentary by Hitler's secretary and vegged on it for maybe a week I finally realized I had lots of questions. I had so much swimming around in my mind I needed to know more to answer all the questions. Most of which don't have answers. So I decided to get a book about Hitler. And she of course didn't want to get it for me. Made some crack about worrying about me going to the other side. So I decided to come clean with something I'd held near my heart most of my life.

 

You see when I was younger I was fascinated my world war 2 and everything in it. I thought Hitler was the most terrible person ever in the world. But I was really just picking up mu oppinions from what I read. Certainly I formed some of my own, but they were pretty parroty. Over time as I grew up I did develope my own oppinion. But one thing that never changed, and mostly hasn't is something I shared with her.

 

I always said to myself, and ment it, that I wish I was Jewish and in Europe than. And someone who suffered was in America now, or than. And I could have taken their hurt and pain. Silly I know. But's it's very true.

 

And of course Mum freaked and in doing so hurt me very deaply. Certainly it's a shrange things to want. But I've always been very acute to pain and sufforing. I'm the freak in class who makes freinds with the dork or the other freak or the new kid. And I was always scared to death of them. Being afraid of people spacifically and generally.

 

So there you know. What I thought long ago, something I still think. But with a greater understanding of a truth. Or rather alot more truths than I had known.

 

What a strange Duck I am!